It's been roughly a year
since I got into a fairly serious bout of depression. It’s taken about a year to get to the point where I feel happy again. Amazing how much some douchebag who, for reasons unknown, likes the idea of putting you down can set you back about eight months worth. And I’m meant to be the cunt.
I have work in like, 6 hours...
Yet all I can do is think about getting inked. Haven’t been this hyped to get some ink since my 21st. Love wanting it so bad, that’s when you know you have THAT design that actually means enough to go through the rest of your life with it. I’m keeping my chest piece idea so close, I doubt I’m gonna tell anyone about that, but my lower right arm idea is what’s coming...
Quite happy to be vilified
when I’ve done something villainous. I will NOT be disparaged for expressing my opinion, WHEN ASKED MIGHT I ADD, when my opinion was pretty much THE EXACT SAME FUCKING OPINION AS ANY OTHER RIGHT MINDED HUMAN BEING! Try giving the right facts to me before asking me my opinion. #FUCKINGTEENAGERS #PIPEFUCKINGBOMB
I see a lot of myself in that man
He’s so cheerful, jumpy, loves adventure and can see beauty in anything. He’d do anything for his friends, even if it means getting hurt himself. At the same time, there’s a rage, a fire behind those eyes. And it’s because he’s lonely. So lonely.
needs some sort of insanely severe punishment. Seriously, if not for the fact their bodies can’t really handle it, then because they’re REALLY fucking annoying.
I will never get the point of ear stretchers...
What I have got, is seasons 27, 28, 29, 30 and 31 of Doctor Who on DVD/Blu-Ray. This pleases me. Need to start working my way backwards a bit more. Have classic Who in dribs and drabs, no full seasons as of yet. Key to Time might have to be bought sooner rather than later..
The Empire Strikes Back Star Wars Return of the Jedi The Shawshank Redemption Pulp Fiction The Godfather The Dark Knight Rises Schindler’s List Forest Gump The Dark Knight
Tom Baker Matt Smith Peter Davison Paul McGann Jon Pertwee David Tennant Patrick Troughton William Hartnell Christopher Eccleston Colin Baker Sylvester McCoy Just putting that out there.
Stuff that angers me.
When you’ve spent all that time cutting some nice, thick slices of bread and then you go to get butter and there is none, and it’s all in the fridge and you can’t spread it because it destroys the bread. I genuinely get worryingly angry when that happens. Guys who won’t go down on girls. I don’t get how you couldn’t want to do that? Unless the girl was a bit...
The Doctor: Brian Pond, you're delicious.
Brian: I'm not a Pond!
The Doctor: Of course you are.
When you need someone to talk to about nothing at...
But of course, everyone has their boyfriends and girlfriends. GOFIGURE.
The following things need to GTF into my life:
Borderlands 2 Halo 4 Pokémon Black/White 2 WWE 13 Doctor Who series 5 and 6 Blu Rays Sonic Adventure 2 (XBLA) NiGHTS into Dreams (XBLA) Christmas needs movies to watch, so for Christmas, someone needs to buy me Dark Knight Trilogy and Back To The Future Trilogy on Blu Ray. Christmas Day is all about watching films and recovering from a hangover from now on.
The following need to fall off the planet and die.
Noel Fielding Enter Shikari Bananas Call of Duty Idiots Moths Pidgeons
ThoseSleeplessNights: My best friend talks so much... →
fimone: Don’t you think Corbin looks like R2D2? I’m so fucking angry I just want to go down on her right now! There’s only one type of taking your clothes off that you should be doing and that’s taking your fu-uh-uh-cking clothes off. I’m sexually frustrated in a non-sexual way. He doesn’t like…
It would be nice to wake up next to someone for...
Name one other man who hasn’t for 2 years next time you’re moaning about your life. JS. #MildPipeBomb
I am never trusting a woman again.
So now, in my honest opinion
every single girl who ever says they’ve been fucked over by men is a fucking liar. Complain about being fucked over then fuck guys over. LOGIC. #PIPEBOMB
I am now suddenly in a shit mood
FFS. I swear I am the only person without someone to properly confide in. I need a hug. Pronto.
I am actually quite petty.
1. If I know Hollyoaks is going to be on TV soon, and my Sky is on, I’ll make sure that the channel is on anything but Channel 4/E4 so I don’t accidentally give them an extra viewer. 2. If Noel Fielding is on my TV for any amount of time, I will be angry for said amount of time. 3. This Tumblr post is definitely not taking my mind off of the things I want it to. 4. I might watch...
Not angry or anything anymore
Just sad. Feel so down lately. Definitely get attached to quickly. Feel so alone :/
with being fucked around by girls. Why is it okay that they can say one thing and mean another? Yet “all guys are cunts”… Really? Really? Really. Last girl I dated acted like holding hands was some “horrific sexual act”. Last girl I was seeing “needed time to think” when what she really meant was “I’m never,...
I feel no sympathy
when I offend horrible people. #PipeBomb
I’ve noticed most of the good things come in life when I’m not really trying very hard to make things happen. This annoys me. Still extremely annoyed with myself, but also kind of annoyed with others. I hate knowing I fucked up, but I hate more that I wasn’t given a chance to fix it. Frustrating as hell. I think that’s about as bad as I get tbh. I yell, shout, and...
are idiots. “Ooooh, guys are using me for sex!” If you fuck a guy within a week of meeting him, you deserve to be used for sex. Put some fucking clothes on, close your legs and stop hanging around with absolute cunts. #PipeBomb #VoiceOfTheVoiceless
Learned the hard way
that when a girl says they need time to think, they’re never going to talk to you again. What they really mean is “take a hint, fuck off out of my life”. Life is bleak. I hate it.
I don't want a fuck buddy.
I don’t want flings. I don’t want one night stands. I don’t want prostitutes. I don’t want that random slut in the night club. I don’t want some girl who looks like a model. I want someone to watch TV with me. I want someone to laugh listen to my stories. I want someone to spoon with me. I want someone to text me first thing in the morning. I want someone who...
I’m gonna fill up this gap with crap, because I don’t like giving anything I write about on here on Facebook. If people want to read it, they can damn well get Tumblr. But yes. I had a good day today. Doctor Who is awesome. Get back home, once again left to my thoughts and I’m beginning to get REALLY fed up with being given silent treatment. I’ve worked really hard to stop...
my insistance to turn to Tumblr when I need to get things off my chest. It’s kinda like I’m throwing it out there for the world to see, but it’s not like Facebook where everyone will obsessively read it, so I feel like it’s not attention seeking, but more just being honest and open. The way I’ve lived my life is with turning my character on it’s head over and...
you could hurt so bad without being in physical pain.
I thought I'd be able to come on here and write...
Yet I cannot. What can I write that I haven’t already? How many times have I turned to this blog to put into words the fact I have, once again, fucked up something good in my life. What the actual fuck is wrong with me? Why do I get stupidly angry over trivial things? Why am I so ridiculously stubborn? Why do I have to act so opinionated? Jesus, my mind is just so all over the place...
Long, positive blog :)
I have felt SO much better than I have in, well, YEARS after Friday night. Made a drunken mistake in messaging loads of people I felt guilty about doing something to in one way or another, and rather than waking up the next day and regretting it, I’ve actually had some really nice comments back from most of those people so thank you, and to those that didn’t it wasn’t my...
to start working a lot harder to make my life mean something. Mark my words: I will be a success.
Guess who's here
to show the world.
Job must be had.
I want stuff. Finish Gamecube collection. Finish PlayStation collection. Finish Xbox collection. Finish Xbox 360 collection. Finish Wii collection. Finish Nintendo 64 collection. Finish Gameboy Advance collection. Finish Nintendo DS collection. Get all the albums I want. Get a nice collection of Blu-Ray discs. Finish wrestling DVD/Blu-Ray collection. I like media.
Sometimes I like Tumblr
because, for some reason, it feels more private that Facebook. Plus I can write long things, which, despite the constant stream of borderline-pornographic images, is what I believe it was probably designed for. I also believe that when you read from Tumblr in your head, you read things in a calmer way than when on Facebook. I want you (whoever you may be) to read this nice and calmly despite the...
Far too unhappy for far too long.
I’m just gonna go sit in Oakwood and contemplate not coming back. Life is getting worse every day and I don’t know how long I can keep this up.
It's well frustrating...
when there’s a job you want to do SO bad, but you need to pay to train and can’t even seem to get a job to pay for said training. Annoying. It will take stupid amounts of training and dedication. The moment it’s do-able, alcohol is being given up. I’m far from an alcoholic, but I do find it pretty hard to give up things I enjoy. I’m so stupidly keen, though. I just...
Waiting for my Xbox 360 headset to recharge.
Do you love where you live? It’s alright. One of the better areas in Southend. The KFC they built over the road is an eyesore and the fact it’s on a main road (and by extension: I live by a main road) is disgruntling. Think back to your most important relationship, was it all your fault it’s over? Mostly. Your last kiss probably meant nothing to you, right? Nothing whatsoever aha. ...